And so it goes on.. ~

People always live by rules. Those created by society and certain religious faiths try to limit the harm we can potentially do unto others. Those created by our self mostly try to limit the harm we can potentially do unto our selves. And it's the latter that holds the most enigma. Cultivated through years of experiments, through vicariously experiencing life through others, through one personal belief or other, these rules are held stubbornly fast and dear. They make us feel safe and protected. Most of all, they allow us to go through the years in a comfortable middle ground. Never particularly hurt, never particularly joyful. The middle.

I hate turning inward but turn I will. If only to reflect that I made mistakes, there exists flaws I have to correct and there are barriers I have to resist re-building.

Can't go back but can be better.

Ready to Move

"I solemnly swear that I am up to no good." I think these words every time I enter a liquor/beer store. Some small part of me always feels guilty. I could be saving my cash for bigger purchases (TVs, video game systems, things of that nature), but I can't. Make that don't. There's something about spontaneity that colours all you do with a superb rainbow. Paradoxically, this amidst a routine we always seem to take: buy coke, sit on steps, switch places due to inconsiderate wind directions, then stare at folks screams their heads off!

The year is progressing well. Quit my job. Last few days here and then am out. This whole feeling of working without boundaries is strangely heady. Well now I look forward to Delhi Pt.2 .. Let's hope it's as much fun as Pt.1 :) I am all smiles already :D

The Year That Was.. And the Year that Will Be ~

1st Jan ' 2011. The end of a decade of mostly fun and frolic. Only a year ago I was in a state of peace and near bliss. Flashback to 31st Dec 2009 when I was slipping on Ice in Bombay and having the time of my life. Fastforward to 31st Dec 2010. Sitting at home drinking Scotch wondering how life changes. Well 2010 was personally a very important year. One word epitomizes it. Travel. Right from working amongst people with Naxalite roots to being involved in projects through schools and malls, it was a great learning experience work wise. However a new year dawns. I still think like a child, but I react less rashly nowadays. Now isn't that an arrogant statement to make? Duh! ;) And m ready to move on. Before that there is the little matter of a resolution. One I intend to keep. Bangkok. Here I come :)

Bad Day

I had a bad bad day today. Fought with my Gf over a stupid game, broke my aviators.. my watch stopped working and all hell broke loose at work. So yeah! M feelin' pretty mad right now. Add to that the fact that m living all alone in this place and its drivin me nuts! Seriously!! M I even fuckin' alive? Well ok.. I had to rant. Felt good. Now m a bit better. So here's hoping things look up. They always do.. something about the grass being greener.. Oh well! Just need my holiday sanctioned and m off somewhere again. Anything to make me hazy for awhile. Lets see! Till later.

The Social Network

Just watched the movie.. The Social Network. In between watching the movie on my laptop I must have checked my Facebook account at least a dozen times. Talk about addiction! My first social network was Hi5. Then there was Myspace and Orkut. Now I have banned everything in favour of Facebook. The whole "making the world a smaller place" thing is so convenient. Its like a human conversation. More so now that I'm at a place where all my friends live hundreds of miles away. From sharing photos to live status updates, its a whole new world of staying in touch. I know this is all a bit mundane as anyone whos reading this is probably on Facebook and knows all about it.

Oh did I mention that Facebook has some kickass games .. most notably from the Zynga platform. Stuff like Yoville, Farmville, etc. There's also a game called Nightclub City, where you build your own club and getting the latest celebs to hit the spot. Last spotted Paris Hilton and Snoop Dogg were jazzying up my club. Right then. I have to be away to Gwalior soon. See u folks in a bit!!

How's ur weekend??

Friday Night. Continued my trend of working late hours on weekends and getting crappy service. Went to a bar later with some friends from work. Late refills, no cleared dishes and no check. We had to track the waiter down to get it. Some things are just impossible!

Saturday is pretty much the same. After work, watched Arsenal play and win again. Fingers crossed. Winter is upon us. So too is politics. People see sides of us. Whether by choice or circumstance, they see that one side then build upon that till they form a comfortable mental thought of who and what we are.
But it's those inconsistencies that, well, make it worth the point. But, well, fuck it. Not like it matters.

Next week is Diwali. Festival of Light. Time for another Delhi trip. Lights Please :)

Whimsical Wednesday!

Tom Petty once said "Relax. Work is for people with jobs. You'll never remember class time, but you'll remember time you wasted hanging out with your friends. So, stay out late. Go out on a Tuesday with your friends when you have a paper due Wednesday. Spend money you don't have. Drink 'til sunrise. The work never ends, but college does"

So here I am. Half a year after B-school and life isn't quite as rosy as expected. Well it's not that bad. But surely going from Hiphop Wednesdays to Working Wednesdays is a downer. Rummaging through my albums I chanced upon this picture of me and my mates having a right go and getting set to burn the dance floor. Which brings me to an obvious point. Serendipity. Sometimes in life, U get blessed. Mine happened in Bschool when I was blessed with awesome roommates and some kickass friends to boot! This picture was taken when we ditched our internship to head to Goa and Carnival madness!! Cheers to you mates.. A prayer for the late nights. Amen!